I am placeless raceless faceless
tasteless
I’m shameless blameless fameless
might as well be nameless
I’m not starving
not drowning
I am nowhere near death that anyone can foresee
I have not been abused, violated, tortured or neglected
and this is my problem.
Give me a reason for my misery
Justify my anger, my angst
My weights are made of paper
my chains of diamond
my collar is a braid of daisies
my blood leaves imaginary streaks on flawless skin
I am my reflection
whole, untarnished, unshattered
and that is my agony.
I want my trauma in a single shot
not a tall bottle to sip from
not a champagne flute to twirl
I want a hammer in my skull
a blade to my throat
a fire to sleep in and
broken glass to swim in
Touch, my wrists are unmarked
my blood untainted
my eyes unmisted by tears that have not fallen
There is nothing wrong with me,
and this is my horror.
Note: Blame Plath xP
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Jon said:
Major emo alert!!! Bee-bo-bee-bo! Shouldn’t you be studying anyway? 😛
xacrest said:
rofl I love your emo siren xD yes yes I was revising english. hence the plath affiliation o.O
Jingle said:
powerful imagery, eloquently put.
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Jingle said:
glad to have you in,
have fun!
It is my night time when you came to my blog, I was 8 hours offline…
Happy Rally.
Alakaline said:
The visuals and the action is overwhelming! It’s like an oxygen deprived gulping in mouthfuls of air.. enjoyed it.
thoughtsnotlost said:
You moved me with this poem. It has such a great flow of words, it could put to song. Great job!
megzone said:
oh my thats a brilliant piece of poetry there dear…
love the choice of words and the way it flows
frayedges said:
Oh what feeling… and the picture ties in fantastically.
Uncle Tree said:
You are just asking for trouble. Aren’t you? 😉
Good idea you’ve put down here. Kinda weird,
kinda strange, and kinda painful. Therefore,
I like it! I’m impressed. Nice to meet you! UT
xacrest said:
I am, I am indeed. I tend to do that 😉
Thanks for reciprocating – I’ll be stopping by in the future I reckon ^^
notjeffery said:
I’ve often had these exact musings and then felt guilty and then not again…
I enjoyed this. It put a lot of my thoughts into words.
Thanks!
Peace to you,
(My entry for the rally)
xacrest said:
yeah, that was my emotional reaction too. after I finished being shocked at myself, that is 😉 thanks for visiting!
mairmusic said:
Yes, hard to justify depression when all is outwardly well. Your questions will lead to directions at least.
Panda Wolf said:
I loved this one! Mostly because I can totally relate to it. I don’t really have a reason to feel bad~
I have everything I’ve ever wanted or needed, so that’s why I feel sad sometimes. Like there’s nothing to really fight against.
xacrest said:
agreed. everything needs a reason, a cause. life is life that way.
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Maya said:
“give me a reason for my misery…” …. don’t we all need one?
thoroughly enjoyed every word!
xacrest said:
Thanks 🙂 It’s very therapeutic, writing this kind of thing.
Jamie Dedes said:
This is a completely wonderful post. The poem just moves and the photo illustration is so right.
What a statement about our culture.
Happy Rally days. Hope you enjoy your visits and visitors.
xacrest said:
Thanks Jamie! Appreciate the reciprocation ^^
Jingle said:
http://thursdaypoetsrallypoetry.wordpress.com/poetry-awards/poetry-awards-4-thursday-poets-rally-week-31-participants/
poets rally participation awards.
enjoy!
let me know after you are done 18 poets commenting, your target is the participant list.
Thanks a ton.
xx
Owen said:
Wow, this is written phenomenally, very impressive. love it
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suzicate said:
I want my trauma in a single shot
not a tall bottle to sip from – WOW! The pic is fabulous as well. http://suzicatepoetry.wordpress.com/2010/10/24/only-in-the-silence/
childofagodunseen said:
Wow, that’s brilliant.
I love this.
I know that feeling, and then I found the other side of it, not too far other, but enough to know that neither are any better.
My Rally Submission:
Lu Ann said:
Pretty sad…. i once was there a not so long time ago… Thanks for sharing, it was a pleasure to read something so well written-.
ladynimue said:
I just found my hidden voices here !! Soooper !!!
Allgoodd said:
I like this poem! It’s very deep and I can relate to it.
belladonna23 said:
amazing piece, i loved your use of rhyme and imagery. you caught perfection at its best and the curse that follows. such as is life, no?
ana said:
Haunting image and poem!